Day Eight Challenge... the Song in Tam's Heart

dear mommy,

i am confused. my heart
shaken,
shattered, then
glued back together in hopes that love would fill the cracks.

but, losing you broke me... bent me backwards... stretched me wide... tangled my limbs and
left me writhing in pain,
left me soiled in the dampness of your resolve,
left me danity, confused,
incoherent to life,
And...
angry at God for taking you away, making you an angel.

so in my Rage, i pawn my memories in order to commit your voice to eternity, marry forever, and bind my sisters in ropes of grief so that we never forget to
love you.
breathe your essence,
feel your presence,
sign your name in tear drops,
and speak your words.

dear chocolate lady,
We are here
Together
ALWAYS...

Day Seven ... Challenge of the Breaking...

sometimes i can feel it swelling,

sometimes i can see it coming,

can even hear the presence of it looming,

right before

smell or taste,

right before

the bow breaks...

right before i realize that remnants of salt from tears not quite cleared from yesterday’s path….

i try to run,

try to hide my thoughts

but i know it’s coming

so…

i brace myself for the

BREAK.

Day Six... Challenge of Writer's Block

i look at them

and

beg them to write,

beg them to pick up pen

and

massage its tip

left to right

across the surface

of paper

without

pause

or

stutter.

Day Five ... Challenge of the Selfie

for so long

i’ve tried to find my voice

so i could dress

it in purpose...

but maybe

i’m searching for the wrong thing,

maybe 

it’s not my voice I’m supposed to be finding…